So you said goodbye
And I know what that means
Waking up next to a stranger
Again
Even if he does have your face
Maybe once in a while

Even in this miserable July heat
I can smell the dead leaves that fell
Around us on that bench
–“Our bench”
I always call it
3 years ago and lover,
That’s still our bench–
When I heard you say
“I do love you,
Dearly, but…”

How I long for that finality
Sometimes
With you
You never gave me that
Was I your loose end?
I served you my cake
For your birthday
You washed it down with LSD
And cleaned me off your plate
We were cool together
So fuckin’ cool.
But you couldn’t have your cake
And eat it too

Mushrooms
Mountains
It all happened too fast
In bed with you and words
Slipped out
Over miles
Over again
Quickly, too soon
You gave me the world
Translated for me
The mystery that had been unspoken
And left me thankful
No need for more
This time

We played pretend
Three seasons long
You son of a bitch
Played with me
But it’s time to go home
It’s getting dark.

Walking or running
Still seems I end up
Back in the same place every time…
A room that sees more action
When I’m not in it
Wham bam
Take me home
I don’t think I know you
Don’t know that I knew
Any of you
Do I think I’m better off alone?
Only when I think of you

Sorry
I love you
Goodbye